Well the weekend went just the way I thought it would. My husband continued to run all weekend and drink to excess. Sunday again was another late night that kept me up until 1 am when I have to get up for work at 5:15 am. So I dragged ass again on Monday. It's really beginning to wear on me physically and emotionally. My daughter is starting to make comments again as well about all the drinking and running he has been doing. I did however give in a and have a couple beers on Saturday when my girlfriend dropped in. But damn it's nothing like his. The little white lies are also pissing me off. Like he will come in and then say "I wasn't in bar" as he is standing there drunk and reeking of the bar. He knew I was pissed. He didn't make it work yesterday so that is a day without pay. We need the money in a bad way and I am working OT to pay for my daughters b-day party while he is spending his on beer etc and then not going to work. I told him I am not happy about the drinking on running. So yesterday he had dinner ready and was acting like he didn't drink but I saw beer in the fridge with some missing. I hate being depressed all the time and that is the way I am feeling because I know I am in a lose lose situation right now. I am to old to be playing the teenage games with him. However I am understanding him because his whole immediate family is a total mess. So in some ways he is better than most in his eyes.
I am very proud of my daughter right now she seems to be doing great so far in school and is ready to try out for volleyball so she is the sunshine in my life and is what keeps me going. I love her to death.
It's been a while...
8 years ago
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