Explaining myself.....

I figured I would write today about what I really love about my husband. I thought maybe I have been writing about all of the bad things and I am sure it's making you think "why did she ever end up with him or is staying".
Let's start from the beginning. I was 15/16 years old so was he. High school sweet hearts that no one thought would last. We both come from hard back grounds and really needed each other it seemed. He was always kind, caring and would do anything for anyone. He was also always in a good mood and willing to try something new all the time. Drinking was not a factor then. My mother passed away when I was 17 and I was sent to live with my father who I rarely spoke to. He dropped out of school to get a full time job so when I turned 18 (which was 5 months later) I could move in with him. I thought he was a prince and we were perfect for a long time. The drinking never became a issue until he was about 20. Don't get me wrong I partied to but not to the extent of him. When he turned 21 did the issues really start and we have been off and on every since with the drinking and cheating. He does great for a few years when we get back together after one of these flings and he shows me why I fell in love with him. He is my best friend and times and I think I understand why he drinks. There are many issues involved that I am not going to speak of. I think me understanding him is why I stay. I like to believe that he does love me truly. I love him more than anything but at times I also hate him for making life so complicated. He really is a great guy, fun, caring father and very loving at times.
That is why I stay