Feelings

This is such a "Duh" statement but being alone just sucks sometimes. I mean I feel like a 80 year old nun. No sex, no companionship, work, home, and sleep. Same routine every fucking day during the week. Don't get me wrong I have been out partying for the past couple weekends and sure you can take a guy home from the bar but what is that getting you? No where but drama and someone getting there feelings hurt in the end. Right now it wouldn't be me. The ex has me not trusting and a slight bit of hatred for morons. I really need to stop that because I know not everyone is like him. But he has caused me to lose allot. I cant wait until this part of my life is behind me. Should be just a few more months and everything should fall into place again. I would rather live like the 80 year old nun that live the with him and be miserable. (however I would be getting sex..LOL) Yea he has called already this morning, I didnt answer, he was saying the roads were OK and I should be safe this morning, oh and he loves me. What the fuck is that???? Cant he just leave me alone. How do you screw other woman and then say that to me. Ughhh!

It's hump day and the weather is shitty but at least we are half way to the weekend. Whoo hooo. Right now the weekend is just set up to do things with my kid and wrap presents. Oh the damn house really needs some attention. Its not a mess but I do need to scrub floors and the bathroom. Grocery shopping needs to be done as well. I swear I would rather clean the toilet than grocery shop. I hate that fucking job the most. There is a idea for a business, hire someone to do it for you. I will just suck it up and get it all done this weekend. That way next week will hopefully be smooth sailing. Keep your fingers crossed.

Ta Ta for now!