Oh yea you know it. My stupid ass went out Friday night and got so drunk I fucked up and kissed the guy up the street right at the local bar where everyone is now talking about it. I am timing it to see how long it takes to get back to LR. I cant believe I did that. I didnt want to kiss him. If I would have been sober I am sure it would have never happened. However you know how it goes you get drunk and shit happens. So now I am on damage control. Kicking dude up the street to the curb and told him it was not a big deal and that it was nothing. You see he was quick to ask me to dinner yesterday. I am also keeping my ass out of the bar for a awhile and staying at home and just getting packed up and ready for the day to come where I have to move. Ughhh I cant believe I let that happen. I am so embarrassed. How can I talk about LR and then I go and get just stupid drunk where I dont remember everything???? The madness has to stop. I knew I wasnt in the right frame of mind to go out as I was pissed off on Friday. Oh yea E was there...my new partner in crime...she was just as messed up and being talked about.
Ok so Saturday I had to go pick up my daughter from his mother and I ended up having a 2 hour chat with her all about LR and the meeting she had with E. She insist she is a liar and that she never said any of that shit. I just dont know who to believe. So I choose to just hide out and talk to no one. She now knows my side of the story and why I asked LR to leave. I also told her I dont care for her sister (that is who LR is living with) nor do I care for her daughter who is a huge liar. I just dont care what I tell them anymore. I have learned to trust no one.
I got word today that LR is still seeing the skank bartender that he just swore to me on Friday that he hasnt slept with anyone. Well my friend was at the bar yesterday and low and behold LR was dropping her off at the bar...obviously from the night before. He is a mess because just last night he was ringing my phone and then this morning to. I didnt answer either time. How do you do that after you just dropped off your girlfriend. He is sooooo gross. The worst part is that I think I have to see him tonight. He wants to get his mail and bring me heating oil. I pray I get thru this without running my mouth about what I know. Not like I have any room to talk but I went home alone and didnt fuck anyone. So I shouldnt feel guilty.
Ok....just focus...no more drinking....and forget about this weekend.....
It's been a while...
8 years ago
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