Still a douche

LR is still a douche bag. I made the deal with him to bring me oil to heat the house and I would pay his car insurance this month. Figured that would be cheaper for me and it doesn't cost him a thing as he steals it from his company. So he finally showed up last night. I figured great I would get to ask him about the house, bills, and child support and hopefully we could be civil. So he whips in the house like some sort of bad ass and gathers his mail real quick never speaking to me and only telling our daughter hello. He turns getting ready to leave and I said "hay are you leaving? we really need to talk about things blah blah blah." He basically just told me he didnt have time for this bullshit and left in a hurry. So nothing has been resolved he was a a complete asshole and again I got no money or any kind of support from him. I would almost be ok if he got our daughter a coat or something for school or anything at this point. But fucking nothing...he has been gone for months now. How am I suppose to survive and move out? I barely make enough to go day to day now. FUCK! I am so stressed out. The only alternative I have is to file for child support but I am so scared that he will quit his job or totally go off on me. The anger in him last night was just vibrating off of him. I strongly believe he is on drugs.

After LR left last night his mother called me and was basically crying and a complete mess over him. She was telling me a good friend of the family told her that she knows allot of stuff but is unable to tell her because she is his mother and it would destroy her. That confirms it for me that yes he is on drugs and into some kind of bad activity. I did the right thing no matter how hard it is right now. I dont know why this woman is now thinking we are back to being best buds but she was a mess.

Really not sure where to go from here. I promised my daughter I would stay within the school district. I have no where to go anyways and no money. All I can do is file for support and see what he does. I am thinking I will give him until Tuesday to talk to me. Tuesday is my daughters chorus concert and he said he would be there. If he shows I will catch him there and explain what I am about to do. But hopefully I he will man up and call me before then.

Life is so hard. When we are little we cant wait to grow up and when you are grown up you just wish you were little again.